Thursday, August 15, 2013


We just wrapped up an amazing 3 day party with J.MAK. I'm his biggest new fan, his energy and lust for life is amazing and his branding efforts are endless. He and I hosted a party at Airstream 2 Go's Airstream, placed at our Downtown Project friends' Gold Spike Hotel. We had a great time.

Today I went by the hotel to remove the J.MAK stickers from the Airstream. I started from right to left. My buddy Don came up as I was peeling away. We chatted as he helped me remove the stickers. I paused and looked up and the letters remaining were J.HO. That made me smile, big time, especially since I've missed her like crazy with all of my joys I want to share with her. The higher my excitement, the more obvious the void. Even the void of her sweet comments on my blog is evidence that my larger than life cheerleader is missing.

Next month will be a year without my lifetime soul sister since two years old, Jeannette Acacia Ho, "J.Ho" . I don't often post emotional things on this blog, yet I'm moved when friends share things on theirs, like Jeannette did. She put it all out there and she did it with humor, dignity and grace. It takes courage to feel vulnerable, doesn't it? It's been too painful to reveal even with all of those days and months behind me, behind all of us who knew and loved her. It's moments of peeling stickers with friends that reveal that she is always with us, in mind, heart and spirit. Sending love to all of you who feel that void for for the ones who will always be a part of you.  They make you want to make every single day count, don't they? Everyone I know who knew and loved Jay say they want to be a better person because of her. She radiated love, compassion, kindness, fun. She had a true connection with everyone she met by lifting each person up one by one,  by really seeing and loving each and every person she knew.

P.S. I couldn't bring myself to peel those last letters off, so they're there to stay until Sept. 13th. It makes me smile to know that she still shines, even with people that never knew her. As I write this from inside the Airstream this evening, a band plays just outside the door, as the audience and I listen and enjoy. In their peripheral vision, J.HO is there. 
I love it.


Monica said...

My heart goes out to you K :( I too had a special cheerleader in my life and lost her too soon but you are right, they make us want to make every day count.

Her blog is beautiful, btw -- have truly enjoyed reading her sweet words xoxo Thank you for sharing ♥

Kristiana Spaulding said...


Thank you for your sweet and thoughtful post. I'm sorry you lost your life cheerleader too. Let's be that for one another and continue to do so for the ones we love! Rah, Rah!

I'm so glad you got a peek into who Jay was, so funny and kind with so much left to give.

I have to tell you, Monica, your recent blog post inspired me to put it out there, thank you so much for that.


Anonymous said...

So beautiful, Kris <3. I know that you will always be in her heart, even in her next lifetimes.

We've all been blessed to have her grace our lives, absolutely.

J.Ho forever!


Unknown said...

What an amazing memory, I really loved that somehow I was a part of it. I'm sorry for the loss of J.HO I'm sure she was amazing especially with a friend like you! A little bit of J.HO will always be with you and now me too!

Anonymous said...

oh WOW!!!! J Ho. I love it so much. She is so with you...it shows in who you were and who you have become. Jay's influence on the living world still ripples far and wide. And boy do I love the J Ho!!!!!!!!!

love you big, D

Kristiana Spaulding said...


I love your words, "We've all been blessed to have her grace our lives, absolutely". So true. You two were peas in a silly pod. I loved seeing you laugh together!


Kristiana Spaulding said...


You were a part of it. You and J.HO would've rocked that party! Thanks for your sweet words. Looking forward to seeing you in Nov. for party numero dos!



Kristiana Spaulding said...


Yes, Jay's influence ripples far and wide! Thank you for reminding me she has shaped who I am and who I will become- I love that. She has helped shape us all.

Love me some J.Ho too!


ballarinogirl said...

I came back an read this today, of course. It made me smile and cry. I'm glad you shared. Jay is on our minds daily but it's so good to remember out loud and share our thoughts with others. It helps. This was so beautifully written. Jay has rubbed off on you in so many ways. You carry her with you always...in your thoughts, your heart and your soul. Love you Kris. Know that we are all cheering you on and so very proud of you! xoxo Lee